Tuesday, November 24, 2009

autumn strings + broken wings + how fast two years can fly by


I always assumed I'd write something that somehow captured Matilda's first year and our first year with her in our lives, but it was such a whirlwind that when her birthday rolled around I was at a loss for words. Brad and I turn into frat boys when we talk about her sometimes..."Dude. Best. Kid. Ever. She's so awesome. She's totally cute right? The cutest." And really, she is. The very best thing we could have ever imagined. It's been a wild 2nd year, and getting wilder and better each day.

We celebrated Matilda's 1st Birthday in Brooklyn, a very different weathered November than the one when she was born in California. In her second year she's run around in her first snow, sat next to me on the subway, held my hand crossing the street, made such dear little friends, and even toughed out her first emergency room visit and arm cast (after a gang fight in Prospect Park, of course--you should have seen the other guy). She's fed goats at the zoo, said hello to penguins, visited the Temple of Dendur at the Metropolitan Museum of Art, laughed at Picasso, and climbed around on the Alice in Wonderland statue in Central Park. She trick or treated for the first time this year, mostly saying "Treat! 'Ween (not to be confused with "wean!" which I may have muttered once or twice)!" and marveling at all the candy she collected without being too interested in eating it. She's taken a music class, started saying so many more things, and even picked up some yoga poses. She is exactly the girl I imagined she'd be when she was just a ball of kicks and flips growing in my belly. Exactly.

She is kind. She's the girl that comes up saying "Hi! Hi!" when another child is hurt on the playground.

She has a sweet tooth. She knows when we pass the bakery or the ice stand, and lets you know she knows it.

She is gentle. She met her first newborn baby this fall, and just wants to kiss and touch and love.

She is happy. And now she can tell us so in words and tackling hugs.

She is spirited. She will run 100 yards away from me in the park...but know I'm close behind. I love this give and take of the invisible umbilical cord. She will climb the ladders at the playground and refuse all help, but still rock to sleep in my arms. I could probably write a whole post about attachment, and what an amazing comfort it is for both of us.

She is tender. She climbs into bed with us in the morning for cuddles and nursing until she's ready to pop up and say hello again. She doesn't like weird costumes or masks. She falls down. She doesn't understand why some kids (or adults) aren't friendly right back to her.

She is wise. She doesn't always agree with me or follow my lead, but she always understands.

She is hilarious. You'd have to spend some time with her to get this one, but safe to say there is a lot of laughing in this house.

Two years ago we had walked down to the beach 100 times, timing contractions incessantly for 2 days straight, eaten Thanksgiving dinner, and were wondering when things were going to pick up and the real action would begin. We woke before the sun, spent the day bringing her into this world, and then the evening gazing at our new little friend. Her birth changed my life in every single way. Happy Birthday Little Friend!

Happy 2 Years from magical days on Vimeo.

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

These Days


These days have been very full and wonderful lately, but also a little tricky. Matilda fractured her arm at the park a couple weeks ago and we're in this sort of "hard cast state" where there's so much she wants to do, knows she can normally do, but can't because of the cumbersome clodhopping arm. She's tripping and falling with no arm to break her fall, off balance from the "boo boo hand," as she calls it. And so I'm struggling with my guilt about the days with a little too much TV, the mornings when I'm trying to get photo & doula work done while she's making sure she still has my full attention with a very clear "Mommy! Mommy!" Anyway, I know it's just a couple more weeks until we're out climbing at the park again, and we're having plenty of fun on walks, making birdie nests with blankets on the couch, and playing with friends in the meantime, gearing up for turning two.

As for me, I'm feeling the work season about to slow down a little. I'm planning to do some more holiday photo shoots in the park while the leaves are still pretty, don't have any births lined up for December as we'll be leaving mid-month for some down-south tropical holiday times, and I've got a bit more writing to do for my doula certification, but am setting myself a (new) deadline of December 31st (my first deadline was October 19. oh well.) and if I don't get my packet out in the mail then, well, I'll just have to deny myself the New Years champagne and get to work on it. I'm easily distracted in these beginning stages of working on my business...checking out other artists & doulas blogs, reading their twitters, seeing how they "do things," trying to figure out how the way I do things will fit into the world of work that is usually pretty intimidating and still a little mysterious.

And lately we're also up to...

Caillou

green tea

coconut coffee

apples with almond butter and raisins

Ladybird Bakery

hanging maps on the walls

scouring eBay

taking inventory and clearing out

learning to eat brussels sprouts for the first time since I was a kid (apparently there are recipes other than the way my mom just used to boil and salt them, and I've got my fingers crossed)

watching Dexter & Californication on Showtime

my silly hospital shows

music time at the neighbor's apartment

cooking up lots of pies and soups at Matilda's new toy kitchen

kicking leaves

chasing pigeons

smelling roses

xo